Hell is Hate

I was just thinking, about how horrible the idea Hell is. I always read in the Bible about forgiveness and grace. To burn in hell eternity, for whatever reason just seems so scary. Even unfair for Hitler. How can a God that loves us so much punish so harshly? How? At times I feel like I don’t know what I want to believe. Who would want to serve a God like that? Is it God’s way or the hell way? I mean the Bible talks so much about compassion, but the concept of hell is on the total other end of the spectrum. I have always been told not to lean on my own understanding, but I don’t want to believe the concept of hell is true. I do think that scripture could have been manipulate for government. I’ve done some studies and it’s been proven. It just doesn’t add up, a loving God and hateful God, as hell can only be hateful. The thing that I find most unfair about the concept of hell is that your fate it depended on Faith. Faith, I don’t even have anything concrete to stand on, yet I could pay the price of hell FOR ETERNITY.

IS GOD A CONCEPT BY WHICH WE MEASURE OUR PAIN

Today is John Lennon’s birthday. I want to say,"may God rest his soul" but I’m not sure how I feel about God after last night. One thing Sir Lennon said that always resonated with me was, "God is a concept, by which we measure our pain". Last night, like most nights I had trouble sleeping. Thinking to much, well just thinking. Wondering so much about my Christian beliefs. Is the Bible true? Mind you I recently discovered that kings of the past had priest manipulate Scripture for government. Am I destine for hell because I was born gay or had these these feelings from a very early age (like 4)? Which to me seems like a set up, equivalent to telling a person born with down syndrome, " if you don’t let God transform you to be healed you are an abomination". I use to fear sleeping, as a child, thinking if I died in my sleep I was sure to go to hell for being gay.

Now , I never was one to really opening disagree with the Bible, but I believe that was because of domestication. What I was always taught to believe. What if that was wrong? How confusing to know how you feel on the inside to be totally wrong. What am I to do? "Give it to God", I was told."Read your word", (again) I was told. So I did, and I acted like I was transformed, many times. It was a fat lie. Then a came across a little book called "The Four Agreements". The book explain the process of domestication and the concept of living in your personal freedom. My parents where taught something, which was taught to them by their parents and so on and so on. So I started to believe that maybe I’m just fine the way I am, going on the direction of my heart. Anything else was self deception.

Ok, back to last night. I was talking to a very good friend of mine about God and Heaven and the imagine of streets of gold was brought up. Now, I’m am going to go ahead and give a disclaimer, "I’ve never been one to challenge the Bible", but streets of gold seemed very canal like. Man finds value in gold and gems why would God? Its material, right? Think about the concept of God sitting on a throne. Isn’t that another men made concept of power. And there are many other ideas that pop up in my head last night that really seemed man made, not God like. Perhaps the images of heaven described in the Bible were just word symbols, because these physical things were the only things he could compare to. But that’s just one idea. Why is God considered a man? The human concept. Why are Jews the chosen people? What about everyone else, didn’t we all come from Adam and Eve? Why is it that babies and children die young, from various reason? Some say so God can work through them. So they were born to die? What makes there my soul so different, that child is the teacher? What is the fate of those in the world who never even heard of the God in heaven?

Ok I’m sorry to rush this folks but i have to go to work, but I hope you get my point. When I see the beauty of nature I want to believe in a God of creation. When see evil I wonder where does it come from. If God is ultimately going to save us from this world, what’s the wait???? "He" sees the little boys and girls getting raped. Folks being mistreated because of skin color. Wars. And this happens so "HE" can bring us out. I contemplate death all the time because the concept of heaven does seem wonderful in comparison to this hell on earth. Is God just a concept by which we measure our pain????
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LIFE..... THE BIG QUESTION

I’M HOME FROM WORK SICK, AND I BEEN THINKING ABOUT GETTING BACK INTO BLOGGING,SO, WHAT BETTER TIME THEN NOW. LIFE. BEING HERE, IN THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE. WHAT IS IT ABOUT. I’M STARTING TO THINK THAT I’M NEVER GOING TO GET A SOLID ANSWER. JUST OPINIONS. I DON’T UNDERSTAND WARS, HATRED, RACISM, HUNGER, HIV, CANCER, ADDICTIONS, RELIGION JUST TO NAME A FEW IDEAS. I DO UNDERSTAND LOVE AND COMPASSION, BUT WHY DON’T OTHERS.

I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH NOT KNOWING THE CLEAR REASON, OF OUR BEING. MY BEING. I TALKED TO MY GRANDMOTHER ABOUT IT WHO IS MY LIFE ADVISOR AND SHE JUST INSTRUCTS ME TO READ "THE WORD" (BIBLE). CLEARLY, I QUESTION THE BOOK. I QUESTION IT’S VIEWS ON WAR, HOMOSEXUALITY, WOMEN, AND HELL. HOW COULD A LOVING GOD DAMMED ANYONE TO HELL FOR ETERNITY, NO MATTER WHAT THE REASON. I ALSO LEARNED THAT THE CHURCH LEADERS WOULD MANIPULATE SCRIPTURE FOR GOVERNMENT. SO WHAT IS ONE TO BELIEVE? ARE WE JUST A PRODUCT OF "THE BIG BANG"? I DON’T THINK SO, BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE. WHY IS GODS’ REQUIREMENT FAITH? WHY ARE WE DEALT THE HANDS WE ARE. WHAT IS GOD WAITING FOR. WHAT IS LIFE ABOUT? UNTIL I RECEIVE AN ANSWERS I WILL WALK IN LOVE AND COMPASSION. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO BUT SEEK AND GO ALONG WITH MY HEART. PLEASE COMMENT. I WILL SAY THIS, JOHN LENNON MAKES A LOT OF SENSE WHEN HE SAID "GOD IS A CONCEPT BY WHICH WE MEASURE OUR PAIN".LIFE.... THE BIG QUESTION.

Consciousness

Consciousness is a term that refers to the relationship between the mind and the world with which it interacts. [1] It has been defined as: subjectivity, awareness, the ability to experience or to feel, wakefulness, having a sense of selfhood, and the executive control system of the mind.

How conscious are you most of the time? Now, I don't just mean to be living, but being conscious, being aware. For instance, I read an exsample in a book about washing dishes. (bare w/ me) You ever wash dishes, and you zip right through it. Takes hardly no thought, right? But what if you were mindful. Really washing the dish, enjoying the fact that you can wash the dish. Alot of people can't for may reason. Some may be handicap, can afford dishes, or don't have running water.(whatever) Look at how consciousness can change perspetive. So, how much of life is live thoughtlessly, which in return causes us not to enjoy life? For me alot. What about you? Being more thoughtful, in tune with life, will change you life.

Forgiveness 7x70

I want to start off with a passage from Super Rich: A Guide to Having It All "So if one of the people I've given a pass to eventually slips back into his or her negative, uninspiring behavior, while I can be disappointed, his or her regression shouldn't make me second-guess my decision to support them. I'm going to always keep encouraging people to move in the right direction. If ultimately they can't grasp their ability to change, that's on them, not me"

Will your forgiveness be unlimited? Tough one right? I like to think of myself as a forgiving person. Forgiving, yet human. Some time I don't choose to get over things as easy. Why? How forgiving will 1 person be if, they have 24hrs to live? So why hold on too fault at all? Thinking of the compassion i've been giving....... leaves me no choice but to be compassionate. That just me. What about you?

Wanting to take the easy way out.

Damn, I want to take the easy way out. Not even gona sugar coat it. I want to write checks again, or something to make some quick fast money. But, is it worth it? Truthfully parts of me think it is. I was good at the craft I did. But, I would most def be sick to be locked for any reason. So No! It's not worth it. Isn't being a man taking the high road and not giving up? Right! That's what all my heros did. I just gotta shake it off(like the Mariah Carey song thats playing in my ear as I write). No matter what your hustle may be/been, have you ever felt like me? Please comment. Peace.

A WORKING CLASS HERO IS SOMETHING TO BE

A working class hero is something to be.

That’s what I heard John Lennon say to me.

 Especially, when you have dreams farther then the mind can see.

 A working class hero is something to be.

Again a working class hero is something to be. I don’t like going to work, a lot of the times. I’m sure I’m not alone by far. It can be so draining getting up early, catching the bus, taking care of kids, putting up with a jerk boss, coworkers, or customers. I am grateful for my job, but I want so much more, feel me? I forget to look at my current life placement as a stepping Stool to reach my/your rainbow, my/your passion, my/your dreams, and my/your happiness, (@ least I hope). But I/we must remain focus. Focus on my/our purpose in life. Life? Is that what makes working such a complex. I can’t help, but think sometimes “is this why I’m here? “. Simply, no! I’m working, or should be, working to support my TRUE purpose. What’s your purpose? Are you working at it? If not, let’s start! This makes a working class hero something to be. Work on the life that brings me/you happiness. So pat yourself on the back because you deserve it Hero! Work for self, not for the sake of working.